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WickedxEmotions
Roe
Canada
I love to draw, despite the fact i have no drawings on here -yet-
Music, reading and writing are other pastimes.
I like horror/macabre sketches or photos.

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Current Residence: Canada
Favourite genre of music: Reggae, Electronic. Some hard rock for old times sake.
Favourite style of art: Surreal Photography. Traditional sketching and color art.
Favourite cartoon character: Garfield
Personal Quote: How you handle life is what truly matters.
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Wondering

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 18, 2010, 11:56 PM
I can't help but wonder how I befell this fate. All I have to do is brush my side to feel the bone through skin. I see people looking, wondering also what has happened. Tears and anger. Disappointment and worry. Feelings of hatred well up inside me, frustration at my own stupidity. Understanding my loved ones fear is far too easy. My face is drawn, skeletal. Limbs are weak, tendons running up my hand far too apparent. When I bend in the middle, I now realize there is no fat to roll. Skin wrinkles, but that is all. Shoulder blades protrude no matter how hard I try to hide them. Spinal cord like a pearl necklace, ribs like an xylophone. It's gone beyond pretty.
My body is failing. Resisting the months of effort. I'm scared to shower, because I know how much hair is about to fall out. Nails are broken, bloated stomach. No more ovulation either. It's been months since the last period. I can't afford to let go.
It's not only my body though, my mind is anguished. Constant thoughts of excuses and avoidandce. Lies and hiding. "Yes mom, I ate an egg salad sandwich for lunch. Of course I know I need carbs! I do eat them. You don't see everything I eat." How can I hide the napkin with the cookie I just took in it? Pocket, then garbage. I hate to waste food, but no isn't an answer that they will accept. Then I realize that this is absurd. I know that I've become something beyond what anyone should want. I want to change.
I can't
I feel weak and controlled by this mind game. I am afraid of gaining weight, when I should be scared of my emotional and physical decay. Of the pain I am causing my closest companions. Friends and family. They don't know what to do. Of course not. I don't expect them to. It's my fault, for falling into the depths of self-deprecation. It is a weakness. Society has duped me into destroying myself. I thought I was strong. It was my pride.
No longer.

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PS Brushes: wyckedBrush Darkresources JamesRushforth
  • Listening to: Pink Maggit - Deftones
  • Reading: The Michael Game
  • Playing: Heartstrings..
  • Drinking: Water

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TVD-Photography Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2012  Professional Photographer
Thank you for the fave on Red Panda Profile :huggle: ^-^
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andyshade Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2009   Photographer
:handshake: thank you
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EscapingInnocence Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2009
Yew :)
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Me :flirty:
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WickedxEmotions Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2009
Hehehe.
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EscapingInnocence Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2009
Nvm...Just Ignore That Last One...Unless You Don't Want To..
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EscapingInnocence Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2009
Lol, The Offer Still Stands ;) hehe
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WickedxEmotions Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2010
Still standing? :love: :giggle:
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WickedxEmotions Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2008
Loving the amazing talent on this site...
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